by Rev Joel Yong
1 Chronicles 10:1-6
When the Philistines fought against Israel, the men of Israel fled from the Philistines and were killed in battle on Mount Gilboa. The Philistines caught up to Saul and his sons. They killed Jonathan, Abinadab, and Malchishua, Saul’s sons. The heaviest fighting was against Saul. When the archers got him in their range, he was wounded by them. Saul told his armorbearer, “Draw your sword! Stab me, or these godless men will come and make fun of me.” But his armorbearer refused because he was terrified. So Saul took the sword and fell on it. When the armorbearer saw that Saul was dead, he also fell on the sword and died. So Saul, his three sons, and his dynasty died together.
Saul wasn’t wounded that grievously because he knew he would survive long enough if captured to be made fun of.
So instead of capture, he resolved to commit suicide.
Why would he do that when he wasn’t so seriously wounded?
The answer lies in his pride.
The same pride that caused him to turn against David when the people sang David’s praises and of his military capabilities.
That same pride led Saul to decide to take his own life when forced into a corner – to choose between humiliation and death and he chose the latter.
How big is your pride? What extents will we go to preserve it?
Good food for thought today …