Fragile Leadership

by Rev Lai Kai Ming

Readings: 1 Samuel 29:1-31:13; Psalm 132:1-18

READ (verse/s chosen for meditation)
1 Samuel 30:6 (NKJV)
Now David was greatly distressed, for the people spoke of stoning him, because the soul of all the people was grieved, every man for his sons and his daughters. But David strengthened himself in the Lord his God.

How unfair for David the leader, who has done everything right up to this point and yet was about to be stoned! David’s men have lost all their possessions and their loved ones were captured, and understandably they were aggrieved. Unable to handle their loss, they had to find someone to blame – who else but the leader? If he had not led them out with the Philistines, they would have been around when bandits attacked their homes. In such times, David could not depend on anything else – not his looks, not his strength, not even his stellar reputation – but only on his God.

In the end, it all boils down to a man’s relationship with his Maker. If we look to another human being (even our spouse, or best friend) for our satisfaction and security, we will be disappointed. As a pastor, while my call is to serve God’s people, I am ready to be disappointed (even stoned!) by those whom I serve. This is deeply humbling, but this is necessary – lest I seek to please men instead of God. Yes, I need to constantly strengthen myself in the Lord my God. For I am human, and I am fragile.

Lord, you know me inside out. You know how weak and fragile I am. Strengthen my soul, and heal my heart. Help me to find hope and salvation in You alone.