by Rev Lai Kai Ming
Readings: 2 Samuel 22-23; Psalm 139
READ (verse/s chosen for meditation)
2 Samuel 22:21-22 (NKJV)
“The Lord rewarded me according to my righteousness; According to the cleanness of my hands He has recompensed me.
For I have kept the ways of the Lord, and have not wickedly departed from my God.
This was David’s prayer near the end of his life. The careful reader would immediately notice something surprising. Why was David boasting about his own righteousness, cleanness, and obedience? Hadn’t he in fact committed adultery, murder, and other “wicked” things? Yet here he appealed to a life that was worthy of God’s reward. How could this be?
From Ps 51 and Ps 139, it is clear that David was aware of his fallen nature, and the grave sins he has committed. Yet, he was also certain that throughout his life, he sought to live a life pleasing to the Lord. Nobody is perfect.
Yes, I would be the first to admit that I am not perfect. I have sinned, and would continue to sin until the day I die. Nobody is perfect. While I work and strive towards holiness, the flesh is weak and the mind is not completely renewed. Do I try my best to live a righteous life? Yes. Have I kept my hands clean as much as I can? Yes. Do I enjoy the ways of the wicked? Absolutely not! But stumble and fall I do from time to time, despite all efforts. Will I lose my reward? Will my Heavenly Father give up on me? By faith, I trust – that by grace, I am saved. In time or in eternity, He will perfect me.
Just as I am, Lord, I come;
In Your mercy, bring me Home.